if u can picture this then you'll know wat i go through

Seen through these dreamless eyes
Blind buildings stark to the sky
Silhouettes as dividing walls
Guarding the eternal secret
Where is the flame to haunt you
Who do you answer to

My lies are always wishes.. Lies that make me
See beyond the rationale
Accept the fate that nothing is meant to be
Be the least connected Stay true to the last original
Apply layers to reality
Things only you can see Add a beat to normality
To tap the core of insanity
I let my dreams cross over
To days of endless gray
If I could merge the mundane and the magic
We'd forged a new unknown
I let my dreams cross over To nothingness and back again
If I could merge the mundane and the magic
Where is the dark I came to find

In later days as time will find you
Memories will never let you get closer
The silent sighs in useless company
Wish for darkness and death again
In the face of ignorance and fear I cast it right back
Some things were never there to begin with
Objectivity is truth denied
Apply layers to reality
Things only you can see Add a beat to normality
To tap the core of insanity

alone (my poem)

"Let me die", I cried as the curtain felland I stared in woe at the world before me My weeping eyes could not bear to tell or the shattered kingdom in ruins before me What became of the lands that were?A pearl in the nest of memoriesForever gone...departed by the minds of manScavengers, feeding on your mother's bloodParasites of life, with my heart I condemn your ignorant waysLike the leaves of the high treesI wither and fall,Borne by autumnal winds to my funeral hallI'm all alone in the grip of the silent sadnessI have been told to honour life and what therein I'll findbut if all I see is darkness,let me die and wake up blindAs the gleaming blade before me,singing lullabies of lossWhispering "Death is your redeemerto the Paradise you've lost"Mankind, evoker of infernoLet me burn your honoured Crown of Creationand dethrone you to ashes for aeons to comeWhy should I stay here where I do not belong?Of weaknessburns me within...And empty shellI've lost the way to the sanctity I needI'll greet the dawn that brings no life,no frail beams of sun to cleanse the black nightMy mournful roam has ended I hide in the shadows white binding my time,sheltered from this world which disorderly rhyme with the fury of damnation Once I held in my hand the starlight of Edenand the white sky lay open in a soul that was free(But the years flew so fast as the shadows were castand I woke up one morning with no reason to be)I'm all alone in the shade of the nameless SorrowI'm all alone within a shadow fire of fearTake me home to whence I came Where I'll find light to feed my flame of lifeOr my heart will die without a whisper of hope...

lethe (my poem)

Give me the drink of the fluid
That disintegrates
And lend me the sweet balm and blessing
Of forgetfulness, empty and strong
Lethe

Hold me near, unravel the stars
As I speed through the heavens
Speed through the night
For you are my blade and my rope
Your are my
Lethe

In currents of cobalt
You storm through my heart
To sever, to puncture
The memories that burn
Let sweep through the arteries
In sharp stabs of pain
Your talon like fingers to kill me again

Steal me, invade me and charge me again
For I burn and I shudder
Burn with each movement of

So, cleansed through a floodlight
I appear; renewed and reforged
Caressed by the sweet balm and blessing
Of forgetfulness, empty and strong
Lethe

Hold me near, my one friend and guide
As I drown through your fingers
Drown through your love
For you are the life I hate
You are my
Lethe

Drag me down, in passionate sighs
With the ocean above me
And flames in my eyes
And grant me a life I can live
Without...Take me away

......From the life that I hate